slowly going the way of the buffalo

These past few weeks have been full of frustration and bad moods and overall exhaustion. I've fallen off the domestic wagon and I'm trying my hardest to catch up and jump back on. Today started with the best intentions. I dropped the girls off at day-school and was so happy that I was able to get them to eat breakfast! I got home and started some red beans and rice in the crock-pot and got the kitchen cleaned up from the mess I left when I went to bed early, not feeling too well.

Giddy and I decided to make a trip to the library and since then I've not gotten a single thing done. I wish I could find some hidden store of motivation.

Today is also the first day of imposing a technology ban in the house. We are all now allowed 1 hour of electronic time in the morning and 1 hour in the afternoon. That's everything from the TV to the Ipads, Ipods, nintendo and computer. Pretty much if it has a screen it's under the new ban. We are currently on minute 42 of our afternoon hour. I'm mentally preparing myself for the meltdown that's going to happen in 18 minutes. We, as a family, have become way to dependent on electronics to be our only source of entertainment, sometimes watching cartoons and playing on Ipads from the moment we wake up till it's bedtime. Enough is enough. It's time I step back into my children's lives and help them grow and learn. I've been absent for too long and now that Gideon is healthy I have no excuse to continue to tune them out.

Hopefully this will also kick start our homeschooling efforts again (Isabelle is in Kindergarten so there is not a ton of formal schooling to be done) since we dropped pretty much everything when we found out how sick Gideon was.

8 minutes left so I better go. I think tonight I'll start my old to do list system that worked well for me in the past. Fingers crossed.

Now and then I forget some things

So much has been going on the last few weeks. Where to start... Well, both girls ended up coming down with strep throat but Gideon, Hubbs and I all made it thru unscathed. Still counting my blessings on that one. Gideon's last labs where great. Crit of 32 and retic of 1.7. So great he was officially released from the care of his hematologist. I'm over the moon. We're finally done with all the isoimmunization issues! He's even on the curve for weight and height for his actual age now! This month has been great for him.

I picked up a part time job a while back and have been working a ton. I wish I could continue to be a full time stay at home mom but it's just not in the cards for us right now since we have big plans. Really big plans. We're going to buy our first home this spring (if everything goes right). We feel like it's finally the right time. Hubbs got a promotion and a huge raise last week. Granted to most people making 29k a year is laughable, to us it's a 6k a year raise. That's enough that after we finish saving our down payment for the house I should be able to quit working and stay home full time again. xx Fingers crossed xx.

The one big problem I'm having with working is I've just about lost all my gusto in caring for our home and schooling the girls. I go to work as soon as hubbs gets home and usually get home after 10. Then I work 10-11 hours a day on Sat and Sun each. I put so much energy into doing a good job and working hard that I've basically got nothing left for my family. I'm overwhelmed. I've been so cranky from not getting enough sleep that I've even been yelling at the girls again. That's not a part of myself I want the girls to deal with. I want to have time to do everything I need and want and get enough rest and it's just not happening.

There's lots of other stuff I wanted to talk about but this post has jumped around enough as is. I'll wait for another spare moment and update again. Hopefully soon.